We spoke with a victim of suicide ideations, and she agreed to share her experiences with us, along with a little advise. It is our hope that someone finds this helpful.
“I started having suicidal ideations when I was in my first year at Uni and it lasted for 2 years. At that time I was depressed and was going through series of trials back then.
Then, I always felt that I was irrelevant and useless in this world. Also, I thought that I must have committed an offence to be suffering the way I was. I had no view about people who were suicidal and I thought I was the only one suffering that way.
Initially I could not reach out for help but later I had a conversation with someone who made me understand that mental health was real and I wasn’t alone. It made me search for more information which led me to be a part of MANI. I felt better when I realised that I wasn’t been punished and that it was just one of those things life throws at you.
I was able to get help almost two years after. I presently cope with depression, insomnia and I used to self harm but I recently got into therapy. I don’t get suicidal thoughts anymore and I view life differently now and I’m making the best use of it.
Whenever I had suicidal ideations I found it hard to cross the road most especially because I could just stop in the middle. Most times I missed lectures and stayed indoor or refused to mingle with people.
My advice to anyone that is having suicidal thoughts is that you should first understand the root cause and then get help. Always hold yourself in high esteem and know that you have a lot of things to do here on earth. Also, get busy and stay active by learning a skill, getting a hobby or becoming a volunteer. “
If you have been having suicidal thoughts, click here to reach out to us for help. You don’t have to go through this alone; there is a way out.